Cancer sucks!!

Well its not good news. There was partial good news, but partially bad. The chemo worked on the lymph nodes they found with the last PET scan. They are gone. Now I have more cancerous nodes, and the one in my lung that we thought might be nothing, has grown. I'm not happy about it, but at least the chemo did work on something, so I am not "chemo resistant" as the Roswell doctor suggested. Something finally worked. I asked my doctor how that could happen. How can it work on some spots and not on others and she said to think if it this way, the original cancer spots are sister and brother, then they also have cousins and first cousins. The cousins have completely different personalities and makeup. The cousins are tougher and a different composition than the brother and sister. I love her! She is always good at putting things in layman terms.

She also told me I had fluid around my right lung. I had no idea! That is so weird! I only felt slightly congested, like I was getting a cold. So she said if I get shortness of breath (I originally wrote "shortness of breast." Funny huh! I already have one short breast!) or pain that I should call her immediately and they will take the fluid off my lung. I don't like the sounds of that. I hope it doesn't involve a long needle and does involve a lot of pain killer. : )

So I continue on Xeloda for two more cycles, then we try Navelbine. Funny name huh? I looked it up and it has some bad side effects. I really don't want to lose my hair again. My friend is getting married in June and I am a bridesmaid! I know that sounds really vain, but I just want my freakin' hair!

I was upset yet relieved. I read all the time about people who have it all over their body and that freaks me out. I know it might be an illusion, but it makes me feel better to know its not in my liver, kidneys and other major organs. Just in my lungs. I know. I am a bizarre freak.

Carol lives on this street. What a view. I wish I could look at that every morning. 

Carol and I at the Bellagio garden in the casino. It smelled soooo good! 

Burro's and bikers. I was fascinated with the burros. 

A picture of the hills above Oatman. Just beautiful! 

I know, the negative is backwards. This is Rosie's, a bar/restaurant we stopped at in the desert...in the middle of nowhere. 

Biker Chick? Or nerd in leather? 

This is the bike I rode on. 

They were cute but a bit aggressive! They wanted food! 

What happens in Vegas....

I haven't posted in a while, but I just had to post some of my pics. I went to Vegas last week and had an awesome time!! I stayed with my friend Carol (she and I are in the pictue) and we did some fun things. She and her husband own a Harley and ride with other Harley owners, so she asked someone she knew if I could ride on the back of his bike. His name was Paul, and a very nice guy. We took a LONG ride. We started out in Las Vegas, then rode north to Kingman, Arizona. We had breakfast in Kingman, and from there we went to Oatman, AZ, an old mining town. It was fun because they had these pushy wild burros that walked around on main street. They tried to molest me because they wanted a carrot or some kind of treat.

I just have to say the ride back was incredible. We went through the bottom of Nevada and up thru California, along the edge of the mojave desert. It the most beautiful scenery I have ever seen. When I was going across a valley and looking up at the mountains looming in the distance all I could think of was the expression "God's Country." It was definitely a trip I will never forget, but, 10 hours on a Harley was a bit too much. I might not have done it the same if I had to do it over. Boy was I exhausted later. Yes, I gambled in Vegas. Yes I did win a little. Yes I did get drunk! Saw a show, ate too much and all around debauched myself! Good fun for all. I hope you enjoy the pictures I post.

Back to reality. I had a PET scan on Wednesday. I will find out the results tomorrow and I feel scared to death. It will be a turning point, because if the chemo is not working, I will have to go on more toxic drugs. Drugs that will make my hair fall out and I won't be able to work. Boy do I need a miracle now. If you read this, pray for me.