Cancer sucks!!

Well its not good news. There was partial good news, but partially bad. The chemo worked on the lymph nodes they found with the last PET scan. They are gone. Now I have more cancerous nodes, and the one in my lung that we thought might be nothing, has grown. I'm not happy about it, but at least the chemo did work on something, so I am not "chemo resistant" as the Roswell doctor suggested. Something finally worked. I asked my doctor how that could happen. How can it work on some spots and not on others and she said to think if it this way, the original cancer spots are sister and brother, then they also have cousins and first cousins. The cousins have completely different personalities and makeup. The cousins are tougher and a different composition than the brother and sister. I love her! She is always good at putting things in layman terms.

She also told me I had fluid around my right lung. I had no idea! That is so weird! I only felt slightly congested, like I was getting a cold. So she said if I get shortness of breath (I originally wrote "shortness of breast." Funny huh! I already have one short breast!) or pain that I should call her immediately and they will take the fluid off my lung. I don't like the sounds of that. I hope it doesn't involve a long needle and does involve a lot of pain killer. : )

So I continue on Xeloda for two more cycles, then we try Navelbine. Funny name huh? I looked it up and it has some bad side effects. I really don't want to lose my hair again. My friend is getting married in June and I am a bridesmaid! I know that sounds really vain, but I just want my freakin' hair!

I was upset yet relieved. I read all the time about people who have it all over their body and that freaks me out. I know it might be an illusion, but it makes me feel better to know its not in my liver, kidneys and other major organs. Just in my lungs. I know. I am a bizarre freak.