How can so many things go wrong?

Where to begin? This past April, at the age of 39 I was diagnosed with Inflammatory Breast Cancer. There is no history of it in my family. It was a shocking day. I went for my first mammogram and before I knew it I was mammoed, needle biopsied (what a joy) and ultrasounded all in a few hours time. The doctor looked grave and pronounced that he was "pretty sure" it was cancer. What a shock to be standing in the parking lot at 4:30 with big gauze pads strapped to my chest. I just never imagined it would happen to me, which brings me to why life isn't fair. Over the past two years I have lost about 80 pounds at WW and gotten so totally healthy (fruits, veggies and all that crap). Now I am about to start my second attempt at chemo (after my first six months, a mastectomy, near death radiation) because my cancer has returned. Why me? Why now?

I don't even have any sort of an exciting life. Married almost 20 years, no kids, boring job. But I feel like I should be doing something more fulfilling now that I've had a life changing experience. Problem is, I can't figure out what that is. Should I join the Peace Corp? (I might be dead by the end of the two years) Should I go bungy jumping (bad back) Should I become a nurse or some other noble profession (I'm not that noble). So I created this blog to discuss my options, maybe vent a little, enlighten everyone on the fact that their family is NOT so bad compared to mine, and stuff like that.